i'm super depressed, scared, troubled and suffocating now.
so many things are going through in my mind.
the school fees, the right job to pay off the fees, the right path and everything.
i seriously dread to go visit my relatives during CNY.
i hate it when they start to drown you with their questions about my future and everything.
sometimes i really hate the financial status of my family and my family.
my mum nags non-stop every single day when she's at home.
my dad doesn't even bother about anything (sometimes i really wish he can contribute to my studies)
as what they always say: FML

i want to be able to pay off my school fees and travel to Korea in December.
i swear i'm going to work very hard to earn enough money to travel this year.
i'm going to save every single cent that i can and be stingy and thrifty.
screw the 21st birthday party and everything. (well, i don't even plan to have one in the first place)
as long as i can pay off my school fees, do well for my papers and travel to Korea.
i'm a happy girl for my year 2010.

and please be generous with me this year, give me more ang bao money, buddha